Friday, August 30, 2019


August 30, 2019

Perfect azure day. Beyond perfection. Wrote at the café, then went to Reems Creek to research my mystery tree. While there I bought from their ½ price heap a draggly red rose, a maple leaf hydrangea, and a native bush honeysuckle with lovely yellow-green blossoms. Planted them. Rejoiced that my yards of sunflower and zinnia have caused flocks of goldfinches to descend upon my garden. DJ took me to see Godzilla, King of the Monsters for my birthday. It was wonderful. Even I have had my fill of monsters for a while.

A man carried his less-than-two-year old son on his shoulders into the café. They were so beautiful together, reveling in each other’s company. Dad bought a raisin-y scone, and when he set it before the baby, he screamed with the most spontaneous and borderless joy. I watched the man feed the boy as long as they sat there. Then the man carried the boy home, again on his shoulders. I watched them the whole time, filled with such praise, such longing to be able to give a blessing, such grief.

Inventing Hellas


Dear God, I found the one academic paper I wrote since grad school. It was for Jean Marty’s class on Greek Archaeology, which I took as a lark. I guess I have a couple of credits toward the MLA, as it was then


David Hopes
Greek Art & Archaeology
Dr. Marty
December 5, 1993


Inventing Hellas:
Greek Archaeology and Romantic Aesthetics

I had the interesting experience of learning Greece three times. The first time my investigation was untutored, random, almost accidental; I simply pulled an intriguing looking book off the library shelf, and it happened to be Homer and Flaxman's Iliad. Having no preconceptions nor prior knowledge, my experience of the work was pure and direct. The impression it left was of a world of radiant force, unanswerable and unambivalent, power unchecked by the niceties which hedge about the Christian God, power heroic by virtue of remaining not quite absolute. As far as I was concerned the Olympian gods were real if presently de-emphasized by a world sunken under the weight of ambiguities. I didn't stop believing in the Sunday School Jesus, but I intuitively understood that Christ and Zeus represented Ultimate Power in cultures whose values were, if mutually intelligible, as at variance as it was possible to be.
The second introduction came when I made the electrifying discovery that ancient Greece had an existence outside poetry. The science of archaeology-- at least as presented in texts proper for a schoolboy--gave me an apparently contradictory view from that discernible in The Iliad, of a people of immaculate sentiments and flawless taste who built in gleaming white and carved in gleaming white and probably thought in gleaming white, set off for history by the darkness of things not Greek. The Periclean marble-carvers were clearly not the same people who produced envious Agamemnon, volatile Achilles, dottering Nestor. The Athena of the Acropolis could not possibly be the loudmouth bully of the Trojan War with her favorites and her machinations. I made the assumption-- not exactly untrue true but grossly amiss in the details-- that these peoples must be separated by tremendous gulfs of time, and that the Greeks of Athens must be more than a little embarrassed by the Achaeans of Mycanae.
The third learning of Greece began in college with a more systematic survey of original texts in conjunction with the revelations of archaeology. Gradually I began to see that, like all people, the Greeks were complicated, various, even contradictory, and that nothing I had learned of them from any source was completely outside the pattern of their plausible identity. I learned furthermore that an artifact-- a funeral urn, a ravaged temple-- reveals something altogether different from such deliberate witness as a poem or a contemporary history-- exactly as going through my garbage will tell you something about me that my letters leave unsaid.
When I began to read the literature of English Romantics, rich as it is with Classical echoes, I understood that they had undergone something of the same experience I had in my discovery of Greece. I recognized that their impression of antiquity (and thus their use of it in the construction of their own aesthetic idiom) could not have been exactly as it was any time before the development of archaeology. Their sense of the Ancients was not textual or historical, but visual and impressionistic. They found precedent and credence for their developing vision in a Greece conjured not out of its texts but out of its broken stones. Stones, after all, are dumb and can be made to say whatever lines are written for them. Is there a science more purely interpretive than archaeology? The Romantics had invented a Romantic Hellas in order to find a viable heritage-- an acceptable parent-- for their own maturing self-image. I had done the same, and understood something of how the enterprise worked.

Like many curious neophytes from the end of the eighteenth century onward, my introduction to the aesthetic feel of ancient Greece was through the illustrations of John Flaxman (1755-1820), the son of a maker of plaster casts and later a member of the circle of the visionary artist and poet William Blake. Flaxman's drawings for The Iliad and The Odyssey, commissioned by Mrs Hare Naylor and executed circa 1792-- six years before the epoch-making Lyrical Ballads of Wordsworth and Coleridge-- are notable for the austerity and cleanness of line the public has come to associate with Classicism. They are, in fact, all line, without ambiguity, color, complication, or atmospheric blur, eschewing even the shading and crosshatching which are the usual techniques of book illustrators to give depth and modeling.
Flaxman had access to the large collection of Attic red-figured vases belonging to Sir William Hamilton (who acquired them while ambassador to Naples), and was clearly influenced by their linear spareness, narrative boldness, and elegant economy of line. Further cause of Flaxman's artistic dryness may be traced to his tenure as a designer for Josiah Wedgwood, the demands of whose industry could be expected to inspire simplicity. Vase painting style, however well adapted to its intended medium, is rather more assertive, rather more of an issue, when transferred to two dimensions. The austerity suited to terracotta becomes a deliberate idiosyncrasy on paper. Flaxman is not so much faithful to the Attic style as engaging in an attempted abstraction from and reinterpretation of the Attic style, based not on literary scholarship but on the remains of the ancient world then being revealed through the enthusiastic if unsystematic archaeological techniques of the time.
Here the artist struck the nerve of his age. The painter George Romney enthused that Flaxman's illustrations to the Iliad looked just like they had been done in Homer's age, which was at once course quite wrong and quite revealing.

. . . Greek statues were not seen as naturalistically modeled volumes as they had been in the past; now the emphasis was on the simplified element of contour, on the "noble simplicity and calm grandeur" which Winckelmann saw in the newly excavated statues bleached from their centuries in the earth. . . . John Flaxman. . . probably more than any other artist propagated that purified and reduced style. . . throughout Europe.

(Walker, p.13)

In drawing the Greek Way, Flaxman was given credit for drawing the right way, for drawing according to principles discovered by the Greeks and which could be trusted to form the parameters of excellence for the duration of human effort. Franciscus Junius, writing late in the seventeenth century with privileged access to the Arundel marbles, was able to assert that the superiority of the ancients lay in their impulse toward imitation, the recreation of the pure truth of things, which he contrasts to the art of design, by which the moderns deform their work with needless ornament and amplification. In Flaxman there was no amplification.
The ancients seem to have interpreted their own aesthetic somewhat differently. Pliny, though he has little to say in support of Winckelmann's supposition of Attic simplicity and grandeur, makes clear that color was highly prized in his time, and that gorgeousness rather than austerity was the goal of contemporary artistic production. He spends, for instance, four chapters charting the history and methods of extraction of the pigment cinnabar, and writes of the colors available to artisans of his time as though they are spirits or Intelligences furnished with innate virtue. In his commentaries there is no indication that the spareness unveiled by Winckelmann and popularized by Flaxman was very much prized by Rome:
. . . Pompey's third triumph was held on his own birthday, September 29. . .  In this triumph there was carried in procession a gaming-board complete with a set of pieces, the board being made of two precious minerals and measuring three feet broad and four feet long. . . there rested on this board a golden moon weighing 30 pounds. There were also displayed three golden dining couches; enough gold vessels inlaid with gems to fill nine display stands; three gold figures of Minerva, Mars, and Apollo respectively; thirty-three pearl crowns, a square mountain of gold with deer, lions, and every variety of fruit on it and a golden vine entwined around it. . . Furthermore, there was Pompey's portrait rendered in pearls.

Natural History (Pliny, Book XXXVII, p 173)

Pliny goes on to mock Pompey for extravagance, but in an age dominated by the successors of Pompey's rival Caesar, it could not have been prudent to do otherwise, whatever the writer's own aesthetic principles.
Flaxman's drawings establish the Classical Mediterranean as a place perpetually flooded with light, shadowless, above ambiguity either of vision or human motivation. The impression his pictures for The Iliad conveyed to the reader of eleven or twelve years is unforgettable. The heroes of Troy strode forth hard-edge and crystalline, animate sculpture wearing the severe expression of the Athenian Golden Age, perhaps a little sad (it was, after all, war), but certainly profoundly disinterested. They were the principals of heroic endeavors without really being affected by them. This visual sensation affected the quality of the intellectual experience to the degree that one assumed the actions of these beautiful heroes to be likewise spare and flawless. Elegant, is the word, but without the modern connotation of frivolity. When the heroes of Hellas were compelled to war, their reasons were good, their conflicts surely different from ours, clean-edged, without mud or sweat or malice or brutality. All was necessitated by the adventures of the gods and therefore holy. It wasn't immediately clear that the actual words of these heroes did not support this impression.
The other important illustrator available in library editions to a child interested in "the Classics" was Gustav Dore, whose thick, complicated, dark line in the service of material such as Paradise Lost or "The Rhyme of the Ancient Mariner" gave a permanent impression of mystery and soulful obscurity-- as though it were natural for Christian or Romantic works to be pictured blurry and evocative, for Classical works to be clear and precise. Another way of describing the difference is to note that though the Romantics felt sculpture-- the art of Form-- had reached a level of unsurpassable excellence in antiquity, that painting-- the art of Passion and Innuendo-- had been brought to a pinnacle by themselves. Frederich Schlegel observed that easel painting-- a Romantic forte-- is a soul and spirit capable of animating the perfect organic form of Classical sculpture. (Honour, p. 127).
The impression left by Flaxman's Neo-Classical Classicism was lasting and exhilarating, fully supported by my other favored readings-- the English Romantic poets-- and largely wrong. If "wrong" is too harsh, then let us say merely un-Classical. Much of European Romanticism was based on a deeply idiosyncratic vision of Classical Greece, one ingeniously derived from broken statues and scraps of pottery interpreted not purely from the evidence of the past but for the uses of the present. When Keats or Shelley or Blake or, to a lesser extent, Byron went into transports over Hellas, they were drawing their energy from an archaeological misunderstanding.

from "Hellas"

The world's great age begins anew,
The golden years return,
The earth doth like a snake renew
Her winter weeds outworn:
Heaven smiles, and faiths and empires gleam
Like wrecks of a dissolving dream.

A brighter Hellas rears its mountains
From waves serener far;
A new Peneus rolls his fountains
Against the morning star.
Where fairer Tempes bloom, there sleep
Young Cyclads on a sunnier deep

. . .
Another Athens shall arise
And to remoter time
Bequeath, like sunset to the skies,
The splendor of its prime;
And leave, if nought so bright may live,
All earth can take or Heaven can give.

When Percy Shelley wrote these words-- in the atmosphere of the Greek struggle for independence from the Ottoman Empire which was fanned to white heat in 1821-- he surely had no textual reference in mind, for the classical texts exhibit the full weight of the ambiguity, the divisiveness, the occasional political squalor of Greece even in its prime. He was thinking of the Acropolis gleaming golden white under an Attic moon. He was thinking of archaeology, and how a poet might make those dead stones speak. Shelley knew the Greek texts (as most of the Romantics did not), and even so was not able to curb the desire to see Greece through the lens of Hanoverian London, focused then on a series of sensational private collections and public aquisitions of Classical artifacts. Though the Romantic era was not the first to be aware of the science of archaeology (which had commenced full force the century before with the rediscovery of Pompeii), it was the first to use it as a major exhibit or reference point in its literature. Frequently (and, to that point, almost uniquely) the Romantic poet intended to celebrate the wedding of Rapture and Order-- a fresh concept, and not a typical one for the Northern European imagination. They saw themselves completing the Classical formal gesture as Schlegel saw emotional painting completing the formal gesture of sculpture. The likely prototypes of formal perfection resided in the Elgin Marbles and other fragments of purloined antiquity. These objects were already judged to be unparalleled in artistic excellence, and came from a time already understood to be exemplary in all aspects of human genius, so if their own perceptions could be found in them or illustrated by them, the credibility of the Romantic impulse was assured.
To the Romantic even the ruinousness of Classical ruins was salutary:

Chateaubriand enthused over the lichens, mosses and creepers growing on the ruins of Greece and uniting art with nature. Enhanced by the passage of time, ruins spoke to the imagination. 'Modern buildings say nothing, but ruins speak,' wrote Benjamin Constant in 1808. Stendhal went further to declare that the Coliseum was more beautiful in his day than it had ever been. 'The fragments of wall darkened by time have on the soul the effect of the music of Cimarosa' he wrote.
(Honour, 154)

The remoteness of the Classical world was a necessary part of its charm, the relatively degenerate state of contemporary Greece-- more Turkish than Periclean-- being a frequent subject of moralizing in the Romantic era, even by as unlikely a moralist as Lord Byron, who mentions "fair Greece sad relic of departed worth" in the second canto of Childe Harold (1812). It is precisely the archaeology of Greece which attracts the Romantic, not its living self, not even the written witness of its ancient citizens, except in the legendary context of The Iliad or, for Shelley, the plays of Euripides in which he was able to find the sentiments of revolution.
I was not able to find in the writings of the major Romantic reference to the chryselephantine colossi of Phidias, or to the many-breasted Artemis of Epheseus, or to brazen griffins, or to homoerotic kraters (all of which were known at that time to exist), or to anything which may represent the dark or the superstitious or the ambiguous sides of human nature. For them all of Greece was an unwavering light, a gleam of white marble setting their own age in sorry contrast.
One does not prize a ruin over a living system unless one is indifferent to its original meaning and use. The use by the Romantics of Greece is less to understand than to prove a point. Gothic architecture is subjected to a similar disregard for original purpose, as in Wordsworth's "Tintern Abbey," when that most brainy and symbolic of styles is made to evoke a wild Romantic ecstasy. This attitude is not a mistake on the part of the great Romantics, but an indication to their readers that they meant to use the past as grist for mills other than historical accuracy.
Flaxman did study and draw in Rome (1787-1794), where genuine Greek and Roman antiquities would have been available to him. But much lying about under dirt and ash gave these objects the one quality apparently left out by their original creators-- austerity. Flaxman's Classicism was-- like Broca's craniometries and Cuvier's culturally biased Anthropology-- a creation of its time, and by a process peculiar to that time-- which is to say, fairly honest (if very young) scientific practice strained through many filters of bias and preconception-- not all of it by any means unlovely.
It would be difficult to overemphasize the importance of the acquisition in 1792 by the British Museum of Sir William Hamilton's collection of Greek vases, and the public display of the Elgin Marbles and the Townley marbles early in the 1800's. William Blake made figures from the Hamilton vases, and a generation later John Keats was so impressed by the figures glazed on terracotta that he made them the central image of one of the great poems of the century.
The one major voice raised against the idolization of ancient Greek art is the typically contentious one of William Blake, though his academic training included drawing from Classical models just like everyone else's. Blake's view is peculiar and not exactly scholarly, but he did see into an aspect of the usage of Classical art to which its formal perfection had blinded the eyes of his contemporaries. "We do not want either Greek or Roman models if we are but just & true to our own Imaginations." (Blake, Complete Writings, p. 445)
Yet Blake's own figures are more "classical" than those of any of his contemporaries other than Flaxman, and more so even than Flaxman's if we take into account the twisting energy of the Hellenistic vision, present everywhere in Blake's agonized nudes and nowhere else among his contemporaries. Though Blake gave credit to Michaelangelo (a plausible influence) and Raphael (an almost incredible influence) for his style, there are few other English or European painters whose work so directly reflects Greek (particularly Hellenistic) notions of the energy of the body, the expression by the body of the tumult of the mind.
Blake's opposition to the deification of Greek art, though, is not merely the rejection of the father. It was the simple fact that the Greeks were idolized which irritated Blake, aside from any quality of their own accomplishment. "The Greek Muses are daughters of Mnemosyne, or Memory, and not of Inspiration or Imagination." (Blake, Complete Writings, p.473) This is Blake's way of saying that too great homage to an antique model kills the inspiration of the present. It is not necessarily helpful for a modern (of any time), to have to fight her way past the examples of Phidias or Homer. Canova, Chantrey, Thorvaldsen are essentially indistinguishable from (quite good) Hellenistic sculptors; were they really, then, the best expression of an age seventeen centuries later?
The poets of the early nineteenth century survived autocratic Hellenization because the great literature of the ancients had been around for centuries, and was not then being dug up in gleaming whiteness, a sensation at once on the street and in the academies.
If you are great enough, or young and fearless enough, you can take on the ancients and survive as yourself. John Keats's "Ode on a Grecian Urn" was written in May of 1819; in March of 1819 Keats wrote to his brother George, "Neither Poetry nor Ambition nor Love have any alertness of countenance as they pass by me: they seem rather like three figures in a greek vase-- a Man and two women who no one but myself could distinguish in their disguisement." (Keats, Letters, p.314) This is a very brief comment in a very long letter, but already we see Keats's association of Greek art with the stasis of perfection, with the single instant in the history of a gesture to which all effort had been building, after which all further expenditure of energy will be futile diminishment. Keats would have thought the selection by a Greek sculptor or vase painter of his subject was a philosophical choice more than an aesthetic one, one likely to reflect Keats's own notion that there is a single moment of fulfillment in every life and in every major phase of life, before which all is preliminary, after which all is decay and disappointment.
  Interestingly, when Keats makes this comment he is talking about Indolence, the directionless ennui which is the only acceptable alternative in a sensitive mind to poetic ecstasy. This ennui he thinks he finds embodied to perfection on the vases of the Hamilton collection.

Thou still unravish'd bride of quietness,
Thou foster-child of silence and slow time.

The idea that Greek artistic production was a sort of narcotic ecstasy mostly reflects Keats's own preferences, of course, but part of it surely derives from the marmoreal withdrawal of his models, the expressionless faces of the red figure vases, the inward, smirking gaze of the statues. Without their paint and jeweled eyes they do look half asleep--albeit a sleep of matchless beauty-- and Keats never saw them otherwise. In contrast, Percy Shelley, a literary scholar fluent in Greek, who seldom mentions specific works of visual art, derives an altogether different view of Greece from Euripides and what he imagines to be true of Sappho-- of a passionate land in love with liberty. I do not believe Greek democracy could have been deduced from any remnant of its visual art, even as the dazzling reasonableness the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries found in its three dimensional art would be difficult to support from his epics or its drama.
Keats- who did not "think of venturing upon Greek" (Keats, Letters, p. 424)-- can scarcely pick up the pen without addressing himself to Classical subjects. When Milton contemplated the writing of epics, his mind turned to the mythology of his own island, to King Arthur, and then to the Christian legends of The Fall. But-- around not always successful detours into the Medieval world, the crowning attempts of which include "The Eve of Saint Agnes" and "La Belle Dame Sans Merci-- Keats takes the Classical milieu as an obviously appropriate subject for epic-- first the tale of the shepherd Endymion, and then of the Titan Hyperion. I do not believe he would have dared these subjects without the excitement surrounding recent archaeological finds and acquisitions such as those mentioned above. Milton knew the languages of the Ancients; Keats knew their faces and their kitchenware. That there should be a difference in perspective between them can hardly cause surprise.
The impulse to beat Homer at his own game is an odd one unless one sees an opportunity to come at things from an angle Homer never anticipated. Keats believed he had found the true psychological source for the poetic ecstasy Homer assigned to the Muse. He sees on the unidentifiable urn (an amalgamation almost certainly inspired by the Hamilton collection) the vibrant balance between desire and fulfillment, between the ecstatic beauty of longing and the ambiguousness of fulfillment, which might be what we expected, but which might as well be a disappointment, and will in any case in this decaying world lend a momentary pleasure. Only the artifact is certain to outlive all such disappointment and inspire fresh desires in ages to come: "Cold Pastoral! When old age shall this generation waste/ Thou shalt remain, in midst of other woe/Than ours, a friend to man, to whom thou say'st/"Beauty is truth, truth beauty,-- that is all/Ye know on earth, and all ye need to know."
Keats makes the Grecian urn speak the last epigrammatic words, among the most critically belabored and uncertain in the canon. What could they mean? What could the message of the remnants of Greek civilization be to the first decades of the nineteenth century? Perhaps that, knowledge being uncertain, the only thing to do is go forward on the testimony of the senses, which tell you that these things are beautiful, whatever they mean. Encompass them you cannot; use them you will.


August 29, 2019

AGMC sang for a movie about gay choruses at the Fine Arts. The movie was boring, but the event was fun. I simply don’t want to sing about being gay all the time, nor do I want to listen forever to those who do. Sang afterwards on the terrace of the WXYZ bar. Drank at one bar on the way there and at another coming back, like the old days, wandering the streets, having adventures. Sam, the bartender at Old London Road, had moved from Chicago because she wanted to be closer to nature. She was born in Kalamazoo.Parked so far away I was half way home before I got to my car. The night was beautiful.

Thursday, August 29, 2019


August 28, 2019

Best class ever on Don Quixote, better than planned, better than anticipated. S followed me to my office afterward and told me the story of his life, partially, how he wanted to be a track star but God had other plans and so he pulled some muscle or other. In response, he turned to God, who is fulfilling him in many ways, one of them being making him into a healer. He prayed over several people and healed them. He wanted to pray for me, and after I said “fine” I realized he meant there and then. He wanted to heal me of something in particular. The first thing that came into my mind was my devastated leg. We closed the door, and he laid his hands on it and prayed twice, as Christ had prayed twice over the incompletely healed blind man. He evidently expected immediate results, but we agreed something like that might take longer than the twinkling of an eye. I wished I’d picked something invisible, anemia or something, so that I could report progress that could not be contradicted by sight. Still. . . it was a sweet and interesting gesture. He and MT are friends, and the same unclouded God-trusting gleam can be seen in both. Both are attracted to me, but for my sanctity or because I’m a particularly tempting target for the reformer is uncertain.  I love being in the presence of such purity of heart and purpose.

Choir, then drinks at the Riverside. Broke three days of strict abstinence– imposed upon myself for no particular reason.

Wednesday, August 28, 2019


August 27, 2019

Windows slowly shutting against what appears to be the dwindling of summer.

White iris reblooms and reblooms. I bless it.

Gave my gleaming, expensive barbeque to Juan. I’ve had it three years and used it twice. So glad it may get some use. From time to time I imagine myself entertaining frequently and with gusto. Doesn’t actually happen.

Received today a response from an agent whom I queried in December, 2018.

Said goodbye to the Dean on his last Sunday with us. A tenure without a shadow, so far as I can tell.

Reading of 2/3 of Father Abraham Sunday afternoon. I was feeling ill, and didn’t realize until after the reading that it was nervous apprehension. The two plays we did sounded better than I feared they would, even though I’d heard the first a dozen times on the New York stage. I can be better thanI anticipate. Most of the cast is fine, and somehow they managed to locate a perfectly believable Lincoln. I cannot foresee how the project will actually turn out, though my gratitude already for the huge effort.  The word “nigger” is causing difficulties which I completely understand, but which I don’t know how to avoid without being coy. The one black person present had no trouble with it.  It is right for white people to stumble over that word, at least for a while. But for how long?

A young woman named Ava from Enka High visited me to ask about literature for her senior project. She was so VERY young and yet completely poised and prepared. Her teacher encouraged her to ask questions like “How does an author achieve effects in his work that will lead it to be considered as part of the classical canon.” We had to have a longer lecture than she probably expected and how it doesn’t work that way. Much obsession, now that I think of it, with canon. What on earth goes on in high school?

Tuesday, August 27, 2019


August 25, 2019

Amazing, dream–enduring through at least one bathroom call– about going to the beach with DJ. He made it to the beach, but I never did, stopped at the edge of the sand by a man and a woman who kept asking me personal questions. I could see the light on the water, but could never quite get there. DJ brought me shells to prove that it really was a beach and not a pool. I must have said it was “just a pool” in despair of never reaching it.

Sunday, August 25, 2019


August 24, 2019

Supreme retirement party for the Dean last night at the brewery. Everybody was there. Todd looked as happy and loving as a kid. I’ve never had that look on my face in my life. Of course he has reverses in his life, but I would say he’s as close as anyone I know to being as perfectly fulfilled as a mortal can be.

Interesting morning in the café. Worked on a resistant play, then continued through The Wind in the Willows, our reading for Tuesday. When I got to the part about Mole smelling home I burst into tears, wanting so hard to go home, not even sure what I mean by that. The little box on Goodview Avenue? It is possibly as literal as that. I know if I ever went there and it was for sale, or cruised the Internet and found it for sale, I would try to buy it. It’s not that I was particularly happy there, but that while I lived there it had never crossed my mind that I wouldn’t be happy and fulfilled, sometime, somewhere. A big, shapely man was buying coffee, and I said to myself “if only we could be friends, I would stop being sad.” He sat down at the next table and began reading art history. He looked like a workman, so the reading was interesting, but he was engaged in his book and I went back to engaging in mine. Half an hour later he spoke my name. Seth and I had corresponded for a while, though we never met. The things we have in common came pouring out. I gave him a copy of The Falls of the Wyona and he praised The Glacier’s Daughters. His eclectism left me in the dust. He didn’t go to college, but sat in on courses, including one he said was an ecstatic experience– the teacher was Wiebke, one of my tormentors, whom I deem a trifling biddy. Some people should stay in the classroom. I’ll actually see him at the reading of Father Abraham tomorrow. It was a blessing. I said to the Lord, Well done.

Have been looking at old one-acts and 10-pagers, some of them unopened for a decade. They’re almost all better than I remember them.

Less accomplished today than I had hoped. Stopped to wonder how many people worry about their accomplishments on a Saturday.

Friday, August 23, 2019


August 23, 2019

Early morning, dark and quiet. This is the anniversary of my art– 53 years as a writer. I will think of that tonight, for at night I sat down at my little desk beside my little window and wrote the first poem.

First week of class. Mostly well, but the percentage of inexplicably bitter students who want to be honored for what they know and who they are and are not particularly interested in learning grows year by year.
 
Thursday, my day off this semester, I went hiking north of I-40. The woods simmered with summer heat, and green, and stillness. I stumbled a couple of times with what I perceived then as balance issues, though I noticed my legs felt better afterward than they have in a while. Age makes you measure these things. Mother turkeys hurrying their chicks across roads and pathways. Went to our pretty-pathetic Nature Center afterwards. But it was full of children for whom it might as well have been the Amazon. All the cats were asleep. One could barely continue without having a nap oneself.

Jose Carasquillo at Ford’s Theater agrees to take a look at Father Abraham, though “we almost never take submissions.” Father Abraham begins locally on Sunday, a big reading I won’t be able to imagine till it happens.

AG is leaving the Magnetic. Shamed to think first thing, “What does it mean for me?” He’s off to West Virginia with his present companion, a woman of considerable allure.

Tobi assures me the re-named TUB has NOT been rejected.

First church choir and first AGMC rehearsals. WJ is late for rehearsal, and when he comes in the sweet tone of the tenors immediately becomes strident and off-key.

Hot days. One wilts like the flowers.

Monday, August 19, 2019


August 18, 2019

Sat in the High 5 and went back to a play. Decided how to continue Poets in Their Youth.

A multitude of black butterflies on orange and golden and scarlet flowers.

Pavel sends a sexy poster of Edward and Gaveston from the Marilyn Monroe Theater in Hollywood.

Daylight dream that I was working at Hiram and was caught embezzling.

I think the dream was caused by my pawing through old yearbooks, looking at faces which, at one time, were all the faces that I knew. Ones I had crushes on. Some who depended on me, and on whom I depended. What became of them? Some dead. Some old and crabbed. There was a moment when I could have been the love of almost any one. One must stop thinking that kind of thing.

First class of the last year tomorrow.

Sunday, August 18, 2019


August 17, 2019

David Adam’s birthday

E had been fighting a brain tumor, which was extracted in May. I had a hard time talking to him last semester, as he seemed disoriented, even mean. Total explanation.

Golden tomatoes out of my garden, seedlings from last year’s plants, which were themselves seedlings from the year before, the only year I actually planted tomatoes. Gaia.

The lady who took the two paintings actually sent me a check.

Wore my AKRON T-shirt, and the delicatessen lady at Fresh Market revealed that she had grown up in Ellet, moved to Goodyear Heights, living near Brittain Road at 6-corners.

Finished a revision of Tub last night. Renamed it Summer Boys.

L reports that Barry tried to get that atrocity of a commission back on stage, averring that we should perform it at GALA. Some peoples’ cluelessness knows no bounds.

The goldfinches come to eat the seeds of my zinnias. Their gold and the flowers’ orange are glorious together.

It’s 9:30 on a Saturday morning, and I’ve already done a day’s work.

Say something. I’m giving up on you.

Thursday, August 15, 2019


August 15, 2019

Stormy, hot, humid, stormy. Went to the big Opening Breakfast at school today Mostly staff. I sat with cops and registrars. It was quite lovely and friendly, actually. Got my name called for 35 years of service. In a fury of revision.

Wednesday, August 14, 2019


August 14, 2019

90 degree days follow one another. My house is breezy enough that even without the great pine and without air conditioning it’s not unbearable.

Note from Dean and Provost indicating that my appeal of Title IX atrocities has not been successful. Making an appointment to receive the post-mortem. It will be interesting to hear the conclusions they’ve come to, as from my side I was 100% in the right, and if rationality, honor, honesty, or Civil Liberties were to be accounted in any way, I must win. But I did not win, indicating that none of those things mattered. What had the victory was, I’m guessing now, emotional blackmail. You cannot reason with a person’s, or even with an institution’s, fears. Very sad earlier, less sad now. Yet still betrayed and confused. I am an old man who all his life believed the truth wins, and until now was not that much fazed by contrary evidence. Don’t know how to get over this one. Thirty six years of outstanding and, I might say, unique service negated by a coven of liars in league with a panel of cowards. Maybe they have better reasons than I think they have.  If there is something further to be done, it is not visible to me. I can say that UNCA is over. It is not a university. You cannot support dogma and injustice and still uphold the Academy. In the realm of Academic Freedom, one minute after noon is night. There is no satisfaction in this. 

I feel betrayed by the Lord. He is the one–even if the only one-- who is meant to stand up for truth and to defend the persecuted. I actually thought he would.

Coffee with Bill A.

Dinner with SS to talk about this and that, and about my plays. Reading of FATHER ABRAHAM in September is set. All criticism is useful, but this came, accidentally, at the very moment in time when I did not need another spear to the gut. Not that it even WAS a spear to the gut, but it wasn’t wine and roses, which is what’s called for just now.

You think that one good thing will endure, one evil thing die.

August 12, 2019

The other night as we were leaving the parking garage, the gate was open and the booth unmanned and we could have driven out for free, but I watched as the two cars in front of my dutifully inserted their credit cards, then I did too, and I watched the car behind me stop and do the same. It did cross my mind just to drive away. It did cross my mind that it was a free night for some reason. . . . but. . .  we were either slavish or honorable. Can’t be sure which.

Mole annihilating my yard. Try to take it in stride, by I think he’s being gratuitously destructive.

Monday, August 12, 2019


August 11, 2019

Vogel’s Indecent at the Magnetic last night. Almost perfect. Two nights back to back of really good local theater. Plays featuring German style cabarets seem to be trending now, and I say huzzah! The level of acting is far higher in Asheville than I remember it being when I was the go-to. I keep thinking I could wade back in, but maybe I couldn’t.  Ruination almost came because the man beside me had his phone out the entire time, texting, cradling it as if that was going to keep either his neighbors or the actors from seeing. Situations like that make me think “if you were really concentrating on the play this wouldn’t bother you.” But, I WAS really concentrating on the play and it DID bother me. After the curtain call I said to him “You had your phone out the entire time IN THE FRONT ROW. If you don’t know how to behave in public, stay home.” His unexpected response was a mumbled “thank you for that.’   We actually know each other from somewhere. I think we had adjacent offices when I was in the Public Service Building.

Saturday, August 10, 2019


August 10, 2019

Downtown to the theater last night. I’d been drinking grape juice all day, and that backfired on me just as I found a spot n the top level of the Rankin parking garage. Made it to NC Stage, just barely, praising the Powers that they were open. Wandered, refreshed, through the streets to the drumming circle at the park. All was lovely, all those people drumming and trance-dancing in the dapple of shade and sun. Tourism does overheat everything downtown, but still pleasure comes out on top. Every cop in Asheville–at least every cop assigned to Downtown on Friday night–is blond and chubby. It looked like a family reunion. They stand in 3's and talk to one another with their backs to the crowd. Had cider at Thirsty Monk. Attended theater at the Sublime, which has the most committed and gung-ho audience in town. Even before the lights went down they had a stake in the evening. I liked the performances, lively and skillfully directed, and the monologs, without particularly liking the play. If a student asked me, “Is unity and provocation enough for a play just to imagine an event and have everyone sitting around talking during that event,” I would likely say “yes,” though it never seems, in the event, to work. Young playwrights don’t do plot very well. Sometimes it’s but a string on which to hang pearls of observation or bravura speechifying. But, last night, it WAS bravura speechifying, so one remained rapt. Outstanding chorus work. In ways impossible to explain, the performance was just right for the quality of the night on the city streets. Energy various enough to contain any state of mind. Stopped homeward at Little Jumbo, where I met Caitlin and Tom, vacationing here from Charleston. He is trying to write a novel and she does PR work, for among others, Rhubarb here in town. I told them about the play and told them to come tonight. Who knows if they will. I told them about The Falls of the Wyona and they said they were anxious to read it.Came home and, since the trend was set, sipped gin until however it was I ended the night.

Letter from Governor Cooper thanking me for Wyona and saying how anxious he was to read it.

Letter from. . . somebody. . . congratulating me for 35 years of service at UNCA. There was even a certificate.

Letter from the Dean saying she agreed with Lori on her evaluation of “excellent” for last year. She didn’t mention my faculty record, which contained a full page blasting her for letting Title IX run rampant.

Thunderstorm–the third today–hit just as I was typing “rampant.”

August 9, 2019

Weeding. So many mosquito bites in so little time.

Ran into Billy Z in the Sav-Mor. Student from 30+ years ago, still dazzlingly handsome. His wife is just as beautiful. They were in the same Humanities class years ago. She was snotty and brilliant. He was sweet and clueless. On exam day he came to my office to beg for a D. It’s my his last class before graduation; I  already have a job lined up, oh, please, please let me graduate. First and only time any student accepted a “D” as a gift. He has been a good father and an upright citizen.

Went to school at 6 AM to prepare syllabi and get ready for our department retreat at 9:30. When it got later and later and even the secretary had not shown up, I checked the email, to discover the retreat is actually NEXT Friday. The bliss of an unanticipated free week! And, to have 2/3 of my syllabi finished!


August 8, 2019

Drove to the Arboretum, used my membership the one time a year I usually do. The gardens sagged with the bold colors of autumn. I explored the Bonsai exhibit, where two women (in earlier years I would have noted “old women”) explained a little of that craft. Why so many hornbeams? It has small leaves. If you cut a branch back, it makes smaller and smaller leaves.  I’m not a fusser and Bonsai lies very high on the fuss list, but I thought the displays were fascinating. Maybe the swamp of tiny bald cypress was the best. Ate a sandwich, which I haven’t done in 90 days. Finished a read-through and revision of Jason of the Apes. 

How will I face my last ear as an academic? WILL it be my last year as an academic, or what shapes lie beyond the door? I think with a light heart and with joy, doing one last time what I have almost always liked. Title IX reduced to reason–as I think now– renews the light of everything. Did she know the darkness she cast around her? Did she care?

Thursday, August 8, 2019


August 7, 2019

Revision of plays, stories, sometimes several in a day. Getting ready for the semester to begin, but also giving thanks for so many weights lifted from my heart in recent days. Give me room and I fly.

August 6, 2019

Another Review:

JUNE 23, 2019 CHARKINZIE
REVIEW: The Falls of Wyona by David Brendan Hopes

Official description: In The Falls of the Wyona by David Brendan Hopes, four friends growing up on the banks of a wild Appalachian river just after WWII discover, almost at the same time, the dangerous, alluring Falls and the perils of their own maturing hearts. Seen through the eyes of his best friend Arden, football hero Vince falls in love with the new kid, Glen. They have no context for their feelings, and the next few years of high school become a tense, though sometimes funny, artifice of concealment. The winner of Red Hen’s Quill Prize, The Falls of the Wyona is the first of three achieved (and several more projected) novels by this author imbued with the magical atmosphere of Appalachian culture.

My thoughts bit: This book felt like many things to me. The story is one long, campfire tale… or an epic poem of old. It’s beautiful and sad and bears witness to times we shouldn’t be quick to dismiss or forget.

Hopes takes readers on a journey to the world inhabited by young boys just after WWII. The tale is told by Arden, looking back on his youth from his adult life. Perhaps Arden’s reminiscing is colored in some ways by the life he’s lead since his youth, but the memories seem vivid as he begins his tale.

Arden, Vince, and Tilden are inseparable as young men. About the time Arden realizes Vince is his best friend, Glen arrives on the scene. Vince is immediately drawn to Glen in a way that Arden doesn’t really understand. He accepts the new closeness, even when he’s a little envious or feels left out.

The boys come together at Wyona Falls. It’s a location that the town doesn’t speak about really. People have died there, it’s dangerous, but for the boys, it’s a right of passage. The falls are like a secret because bad things can happen there – but that just seems to make it more important that they are found and shared only with close friends.

“Undifferentiated cloud of young male energy.” – Hopes in the Falls of Wyona

Vince invites Glen to the falls and when Glen does a reckless handstand on the edge of a cliff high above the falls, Vince feels different for the first time in his life. He sees Glen in danger and can’t put into words the way the emotion whirls dangerously inside him. Arden sees his friend’s discomfort and realizes that there is a bond between Vince and Glen that is unique… even if he’s not equipt to understand it.

As the boys grow older, their relationships ebb and flow. They make misguided choices. They don’t always understand the consequences of their actions. They become young men in a post-WWII world that still has very tight definitions of masculinity.

Hopes’ writing is artful and poetic without ever straying from its intended course.

I’m at a bit of a loss as to how to describe this book. It’s a story about the raw and unbreakable bonds of young friendship, it’s about the love between two boys during a time when it wasn’t accepted at all, it’s about becoming a man, learning to be passionate about things and realizing things aren’t as ideal as we wish they were.

All the characters in this story are on their way to becoming someone different, whether it’s a legend, a tragedy or a man reminiscing about his youth.

This book is full of the heat of almost-forgotten summers, the spark of first love, and the fierceness of friendship. There is misplaced hope, family bonds, promises, and adventure.

The warnings bit: Please be aware, I’m by no means an expert on what may or may not have the potential to disturb people. I simply list things that I think a reader might want to be aware of. In this book: depictions of mental illness, homophobia, homophobic speech, toxic masculinity, discussions about suicide, descriptions of dead bodies, descriptions of decomposed bodies.

I received an ARC of The Falls of Wyona by David Brendan Hopes from Red Hen Press via Edelweiss in exchange for an unbiased review.

Didn’t mention that the Residence Inn across from my hotel had a book shelf. I snuck a copy of Wyona onto it. When I have done this in the past (such as at the Russell in London) they have been found and retrieved by people I know. Ludicrous.

Tuesday, August 6, 2019


August 5, 2019

Perhaps I should have introduced Wyona to the family by pointing out it’s dedicated to grandma and grandpa Summers and that the name of the main family in it is Summers. Nobody seems to have noticed that so far.

Took the Prius to be serviced at Fred Anderson, and ran into the unexpected loveliness of redneck courtesy. Don’t know how much of it was company policy and how much of it was genuine neighborliness, but it made me feel a little ashamed of my formality and reserve.

Three plays revised.

Considering at the end of it, an almost perfect day.

Monday, August 5, 2019

August 4, 2019

The Summers reunion happened at a handsome old country club on a windy lake in, I think, Green Township. I met or was reacquainted with scores of cousins, second cousins, first cousins one removed on my mother’s side of the family. Plenty of kids, but no actual babies until Jonathan showed up with his beagle puppy. One first cousin once removed is Adonis. He works in a bar I passed on the way there, and it crossed my mind. . . but no. . . . In that crowd to say, “Well, I just published a new book that is getting sweet notices,” would have been difficult to contextualize. I picture them trying to think of the correct thing to say. Most of the talk was actually of various people’s tragedies and ailments, but everyone already knew the stories, so it was a community chirp, like birds in the trees, to keep the contact constant. Good time, but an odd time to me, something you see in movies but never quite feature for yourself. Good to see Linda and Jonathan, and Aunt Barbara maybe for the last time. I kept remembering experiences with her that she didn’t remember.

What was I doing while my family was learning one another? I was searching for THEM. THEY could not be found. This leaves me wildered and alone, but I do not regret it. To have found THEM would have been earthly bliss, and even the vain search was engaging.

Against all expectation, American got me home without incident.

August 3, 2019

Breakfast at the hotel, at a window overlooking a thin margin of green ash and then a huge truck lot. Some festival at the Pro Football Hall of Fame packs the hotels and the roads with one-time football players. They are very big. Even the old ones have not forgotten they were big.

Lay down before 8 PM and did not rise until after 6 AM. Intense dreams.

Yesterday, Hiram, then trek down Tallmadge Avenue. For two summers I drove that way every day to man the summer playground program at King School. Drove on to Stan Hywet, stately home of the Seiberlings. The last time I’d been there was to the gardens to shoot photos for Mike and Diane’s wedding. Stan Hywet is Akron’s Biltmore House, much less grand and considerably more liveable. I remembered certain features from tours I had as a schoolboy, such as the cartoons of the Kaiser and of Hitler in the boys’ bedroom. I was able to brag that I knew Julie Seiberling Shaw, who was professor Shaw’s wife. Our guide says she is still alive, “though getting up there.”


August 2, 2019

In Hiram, in the corner of the Kennedy Center that used to the Squire Hill Restaurant. But which is now the Hiram Bistro. It’s closed, and the tables empty, giving me a place to write in peace. Looking down on the playing fields and the field house, and tress that were but 2/3 their age when I first looked upon them.

In the flight from Charlotte a flight attendant did not show up. Another flight cancelled, saving us, for their team could add to our team. American Airlines.

Dreamed of Hiram last night, except that it was a vast city through which I wandered at night, every now and then coming upon a place important to my history, which were lit as if anticipating my arrival. I was leaving Hiram the next day, in the dream, and wondering how it would remember me.

Thoughts of John Shaw standing on the porch of Bonney Castle, forbidding the bulldozers to tear it down.

It’s a year and a week since I’ve been here. I’m a couple hundred times better off this time.

Passing through the Akron/Canton airport, I remembered that there in the business lounge I began The Falls of the Wyona. Perhaps I remember and note that every time.

Crazy Chicken Sports Bar on Arlington Street. Feeling of knitting together and on blessing, as though I could look out and see the edges of the garment I’ve been weaving, almost recognize it, almost put it on. My room at the Holiday Inn Express looks out on a rough, round pond ticket between it and the traffic of I-77. It is the most beautiful thing.

Thursday, August 1, 2019


August 1, 2019

Yet another summer day divided between sunshine and thunder. Finished the revision of The Handsomest Man. Gave money to Glenis’ Go Fund Me enterprise to help fight her cancer. One likes to help. One also is infuriated that people have to go on line begging friends and strangers for help when they are ill. America has so much wrong with it right now that it makes one sick thinking about it. Getting ready for the flight to Akron. It looks streamlined, doable, keeping in mind that American Airlines is capable of bollocksing anything. In charge of a school crossing they’d likely lose the children. You swear never to use an airline again, then discover they’re the only ones that go where you’re going. Sleeping heroically. I think the tension of fighting Title IX and finishing Jason released all at once. Maud sits on my foot as I type.

July 31, 2019

Coughing fit burst a blood vessel in my left eye. That’s going to be attractive on the plane Friday and at the Reunion. I look like a TV alien. Sitting on RS’s discernment committee, amazed at the depth of his thought on things that, generally speaking, never cross my mind. People don’t appreciate how much of a wild thing I am, hurling forward mostly on impulse. For an artist this is a good thing. Some mercy has kept it from being a disastrously bad thing in other ways. For the most part. I also recognized that missing from my life has been frequent (even periodic) in-depth discussion with my peers on serious matters. We’re always flying past one another, sending out code meant to suggest our points of view. Sometimes with Jack, though that’s not frequent anymore. Sometimes with my students, though the differences in age and experience render that not quite a confabulation of peers.

Being freed (so I think) from all that Title IX mire has lifted my spirits and my energies. Worse than coping with a terrible mistake, in some ways, is being right and having that matter not one bit. I must remember perseverance. I must remember that the mills of the gods grind slow, but they grind exceeding fine.