Blue Plastic

February 10, 2026

A shredded spider of blue plastic has been clinging to the redbud since Helene. That’s year and a half. I supposed it was out of reach, but never put that to the test until today, when I took a leaf rake down and had the plastic out of the branch in two minutes. I think Gary Snyder has a poem about suffering a leak in his roof until one day he pushed on a board and–voila–the leak is gone. If I had my life to live over, I might adopt “do it now!” as a motto. Seven huge turkeys gleaned in my yard for a long time. Spillage from the bird feeders was a boon to them. God makes up with the beauty of their plumage for their striking stupidity. Maybe it’s not stupidity, but trust.  Warm day. Sat on the porch with tea in one of Kit’s mugs. I’m suddenly a fanatic consumer of tea, when months would go by formerly without my touching it. Sent manuscripts out. 

 

 February 9, 2026

Tinkering with the LT manuscript, still finding typos after I ran it through Spellcheck. The day filled and overflowed, even if I’m not sure with what. 

 February 8, 2026

Finished the umpteenth and second most radical revision of The Lexington Tract. I moan when things are not published, but when the Voice of the still room says, “Would you really have wanted it published like THAT?” the answer is no. Watched the American boy and the Japanese boy skate in Italy. I wanted the American boy to win, of course, but the Japanese boy was so full of life and so sad when he lost that I wished I hadn’t watched. 

Ashes

February 7, 2026

A day that turned out very different from what I expected when I woke, spent time re-arranging wanted and clearing out unwanted objects. Panicked because I couldn’t find Titus’ little box of ashes. Found it finally, put it in the cat shrine with remains and relicts of his sisters and brothers. Theseus and Conrad and Jocasta sleep on the hill across the street, where I cannot reach them, but where I remember them. Found old cat toys. Wept bitterly. Something about the feng shui of the house stands immensely improved. 

 

 

February 6, 2026

K sends a letter announcing a Sabbatical for this spring. Sends a revised schedule, from which he is largely absent. So, that’s that. I want to say “I saw it coming,” but I was probably the last.

 February 5, 2026

Another dusting of snow. 

Rehearsal somber last night. K is done with being a choral director. He has resigned ASC and provides the church choir with third-rate pieces whose mistakes he barely manages to correct. We have declined into a second-rate church choir, whereas we were once the best in the city. Whether that is a cause or a result of his disinterest is difficult to tell. It is well when your own change of concentration affects nobody else. 

Frenzy of rewriting– which makes me blissfully happy. 

 February 4, 2026

When I checked my Schwab account, every single holding was in positive territory. God knows what causes such things. I thought maybe it was Trump’s death, but checking the news revealed no such mercy. 

Ajax came again for his repast at sundown. The Twilight Buccaneer. He’s very young. This was his first winter. His plumage hasn’t darkened, and he tried to land on the car, sliding down the hood with wings flapping wildly.